Resistance is futile

i am now officially a member of the Borg Collective. the tube is in and we have been draining 1ltr./day for a little over a week or maybe 2 weeks? i dunno. anyway. i am pretty much empty from what we can tell and am now just draining and checking the bandage 1x/week. the convenience is nice. drain when i feel like it....i have a nurse the comes to my house once or twice a week depending on my needs. either he will do the drain, or he will train anyone i want to be able to do it. my mom and i have been trained to do it...i haven't done it on my own yet because of the angle....it's kind of hard to get through the last step by myself. morphine is still my friend so far. i am on these continuous release patches that i have to change every other day. i am also taking a short acting version for when that just isn't enough. i'm still not taking very much in the way of pain meds. dr. dooms nurse laughed at me when she saw how much the Rx for the morphine patch was....she said "whoa, don't o/d or anything! hehehe" at the time i was on the lowest possible dose, i am switching to the second lowest and my have to go up from there....i don't know. its one big guessing game of trying to manage the pain. some days are fine, some days are terrible. stress has an effect on how my meds work, so i need to try to tone down the stress i think.

i am extremely weak...can barely make it up the stairs without losing my breath. its terrible. my left lung is pretty full (well, the space between my lung and the sack that holds my lung) and i have a thora tomorrow that will hopefully bring some relief. morphine and lack of stamina also cause trouble breathing and since i've got all 3 going on....i figured that it was time to drain the poor lung. i've only had that done 2 times. the first time hurt terribly for several days, the second time it was like i'd been doing it for years. so, cross your fingers that tomorrow is like the second one i had. please be a nice thora!

sorry i haven't written a post in a while. its been rough going. you can pretty much assume that if i am not writing posts than i am in no shape to even get on the computer. unless i have mentioned a vacation or something.

oh yeah, during this "figure out the pain meds" and "get a Borg tube in my tummy" drama....i have managed to re-injure my pirafomis in my left leg and injure the right one just 1 week later. all that going on sure makes it hard to figure out your stable med plan. :(

hope is just around the corner....i can feel it. it's my turn for some good luck...MY TURN!