You look Maaaarvvolousss!!!!

shout out to billy crystal!

ok, so i lost a bunch of weight during my recovery....well, about 20lbs, so not a BUNCH. but, my body has changed a lot because i lost both fat and muscle. (and a cantaloupe sized ovary which i never found out how much that sucker weighed). anyway, i look like i've been on a great diet, not like i have been to hell and back. the one bad thing about it is that i have lost all padding....and i mean ALL padding in my ass. not like i had much of an ass to begin with....i had a flat butt, but i at least had some sort of butt. now, i have nothing and it hurts like hell to sit for very long because my tail bone...bottom of my backbone bone... jams into the seat. it feels like i am a freak of nature and have grown a tail. needless to say, my workout plan is focused on building up a butt...simply for comfort! the best way i can describe it is if you were sitting on your elbow...yeah, that about sums it up. try putting the majority of your weight on your elbow and see how long you can stand it.........not too comfy.

the only fun part is that now i need all new clothes. w00t! can we say shopping spree!!! build up my stamina by shopping for cute and fun summer clothes. can't beat that. i went shopping the other day and got 2 pairs of shorts, 2 shirts, 2 skirts, 2 summer dresses and 3 pairs of cute jeans to replace the ones that i already have that i LOVE but are too big now. it was a great start....oh, and a new pair of Coach shoes...cuz...well...just cuz. :-)

all in all i have lost a total of 40lbs since i was diagnosed....due to the sutent side effects and the surgery and recovery. luckily i had some meat on me to lose so i don't look like a skeleton. but, that is why i needed all new summer clothes...because they weren't just a size too big, they were 3 to 4 sizes too big. as far as the winter clothes, they are only 1 or 2 sizes off.

i am still eating like a pig....the steroids really make me hungry. as i have mentioned, it feels wonderful to be able to eat...and eat a LOT. i am not gaining anything back tho....im sure that will change, but right now im fine with it....i havent been this size since high school!