Whatchu talkin bout Willis?!

so, in my search for people like me out there...30 somethings that have been diagnosed with kidney cancer, the pickin's are slim. many personal blogs are about random drama in people's lives that few other people in this world give a rat's a$$ about...this one will probably be no different. although the main subject will be my cancer, i'm sure i will go off on random tangents about anything from mixed emotions to who cut me off on the highway today. im not an english major...i wont capitalize or punctuate correctly, i will change tenses and i will speak like a g33k from time to time. basically i will be me...because i can hide behind my computer screen and its great!

ps...i will also jump around...my mind is all over the place all the time...

Monday, January 19, 2009

transfusion schmanfusion!

ok. so the transfusion of wonderful blood was supposed to make me feel better. well, i'm still waiting for that to happen. i have been one cranky bear for the past couple days. first i felt like i got dumbass blood, if that is even possible. i really felt stupider (i know that stupider is not a word). then i decided that i think i know what it feels like to be 11 months pregnant...yes, i said 11. i know the norm is 9, that is precisely my point. i am so full of edema and fluid right now that it is almost unbearable. i'm trying to drink and walk as much as possible. little baby 10 min walks several times a day. so far i just keep gaining weight rather than it coming off. i am SO freaking cranky i can barely stand myself. the only time i get any relief is when i take a bath. a nice hot bath and i can float my big ole bloated belly in the water. ahhhh....that is the only time in the day that i feel "normal". the edema is moving around...it has moved down my legs now too....my feet look like little loaves of bread in my shoes. im baking bread in my shoes...a new talent that i can brag about.

my memory was not serving me well and my mom reminded me that i really didn't start "feeling" relief last time i had edema until the 2nd week. that it started moving and people could see a difference, but i didn't feel much relief until after the second week. then it started to go down a lot faster once it got going. so, i am waiting a few more days to get further into the second week to see if things start to pick up. if not, i am calling my dr. early(i have an appt thurs) to see if i need to come in sooner. i have to admit that this time yesterday i was worse than i am today, but who knows what tomorrow will bring. up down up down up down up down.....uggg.

calgon...take me away! if i lived on the moon right now, it would be so much more comfortable.

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