Die, die, die my darling!!!

i am a walking, cancer killing machine...or so i hope! tonight is my last sutent pill in round 2 of the sutent cycles. thankfully, i wont be feeling like ass over the holidays since my 2 weeks off starts tomorrow. yippie! the side effects will slowly subside over 4 or 5 days and then i get to have over a week of normalcy. its funny what you start to be thankful for...i am thankful for feeling normal for a day. w00t!

the only day that will suck is the 27th, the day of my scan. my onc nurse told me that i will have to do the drinking dye, not just the IV dye. yucky mcyuckerson!! i have had 5 CT scans and have only had to drink the dye once. that stuff is disgusting. they give it to you in 6 cups, like they are lining up shots on a bar. then they ask you what your favorite drink is so they can add it to the cups to "cover up" the taste of the dye. NOTHING can completely cover up the taste, but ginger ale does a pretty good job. anyhoo, you have to drink each of these mega shots within a hour and a half. one every 15 to 20 minutes(if you do them all at once you will puke your guts out). by the time you finish the last one, the first one is already screaming to come out the other end. this is not fun. you dont know whether to put your head in the toilet or your ass on it cuz you dont know which end is going to blow first. by the time i got down to the ct room, i had already puked once and blown out the other end at least 6 times...within an hour. i couldnt make it longer than 10 minutes without needing to be near a bathroom. so, because of this lovely side effect, i am dreading my scan day.

there is a medical reason for the way this dye reacts in your body. it is not good for the digestive dye to sit in your system for very long, so they add the special "trigger" to it so your body will get rid of it as soon as possible. great. bombs away! but, if the scan comes back and shows that i am killing cancer, in the grand scheme of things....it sure as hell is worth a little colon blow to kick cancers arse!!